Second Mondays

On Tuesday, in my theory class, we decided it was "Second Monday".  I like this, and I think Thursday should now be "Early Friday" or "Almost Friday".  Much more optimistic, I think.  Second Monday reminds me of the part in Lord of the Rings where Pippin says, "When are we having breakfast?"
And Aragorn replies, "We've already had breakfast."
"First breakfast, yes, but what about second breakfast?"

maybe there should be a second everything.

In Creative Writing we are reading Poem of the Deep Song, by Garcia Lorca.  It is originally written in Spanish, it is haunting and lovely poetry I think:

El grito deja en el viento
una sombra de cipres.

(Dejadme en este campo
llorando.)

Todo se ha roto en el mundo.
No queda mas que el silencio.

(Dejadme en este campo
llorando.)

El horizonte sin luz
esta mordido de hogueras.

(Ya os he dicho que me dejeis
en este campo
llorando.)

The cry leaves a shadow
of cypress upon the wind.

(Leave me here in this field,
weeping.)

Everything in the world is broken.
Nothing but silence remains.

(Leave me here in this field,
weeping.)

The moonless horizon
is chewed up by bonfires.

(I've told you already to leave me
here in this field,
weeping.)

i love people.

they are always surprising me, just when i think they are utterly predictable.

and i love basic truth.  just the simple things you need to know.

i always get these from lauren...

the point is to just use one word...

1. Where is your cell phone?
desk

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?
nope

3. Your hair?
straight

4. Your Mother?
best

5. Your father?
constant

6. Your favorite thing?
words

7. Your dream last night?
spelling

8. Your favorite drink?
milk

9. Your dream car?
mine

10. The room you're in?
sunny

12. Your fears?
knives

13. What do you want to be in 10 years?
sent

14. Who did you hang out with last night?
ek

15. Muffins?
it'smuffindaytodayohyay!

17. One of your wish list items?
book

18. Where you grew up?
arkansas

19. The last thing you did?
listened

20. What are you wearing?
tshirt

21. Your TV?
gilmores

22. Your pet?
purrs

23. Your computer?
tiny

24. Your life?
provided

25. Your mood?
exhausted

26. Missing?
drew

27. What are you thinking about right now?
everything

28. Your car?
beebop

29. Your work?
recruitment

30. Your summers?
best

31. Your relationship status?
zero

32. Your favorite color?
aqua

33. When is the last time you laughed?
hospital

34. Last time you cried?
november

35. School?
unfortunately

sundays

The past two Saturdays I have stayed up incredibly late talking to Erika.  Last Saturday it was 4:00 am and I was the hurt one.  This Saturday it was 6:15 am and she was the injured one.  I busted my shin open and she hyperextended her knee.  Crazy, right?  But they have been two of the best nights so far.

Although, this morning I woke up at 8:00am... 2 1/2 hours of sleep.  I don't know how, but I haven't been tired yet today.  I'm sure I will crash soon, though.  In the meantime, I've got to put on a dress, go to chapter, write a paper about Romantic narrators, and write a short story in vignettes.  I finally gave Carina up and decided to write about what I know.  I'm going to write about soccer, and going to State and losing, and how I was so unprepared for that sense of finality and loss.  Two years is enough for it to compost in the organic matter of my mind, right?

Today at church I found a new song:

my eyes are small but they have seen
the beauty of enormous things
which leads me to believe
there's light enough to see that

you make everything glorious
you make everything glorious
you make everything glorious
and i am yours

i've had good days, and bad days, and going half mad days...

i have to resist (and i mean resist) the urge to RUN back to the house from my classes when it is cold like it is today.  sometimes i am walking so fast that i almost trip.  then i turn a corner and the wind is suddenly at my back, moving where i am moving, and i don't have to walk so hard because the wind pushes me.

something that i really miss about home is having my own bathroom.  a bathroom, and everything that takes place within, is very personal, so it is nice to have one all to yourself, where you can shut the door.  i miss being able to just leave my stuff strewn about:  bobby pins and brushes and lip gloss and earrings and cotton balls.  i miss being able to light candles and take a bath.  i miss taking long, long showers and not worrying that someone else might be waiting on me.  i miss having pictures on my mirror and towels hanging up on the wall behind me.  i do not like always using the toilet behind a stall door.  so when i have my own house, the first thing i will attend to is the bathroom.

for valentine's this year, i've received the most wonderful gifts:  a giftcard to hobby lobby, a footstool to match my chair, and a pin that says "soy amada".  i am excited about v-day.  i'm excited to see all the flower vases that will be piled onto our entry table, and probably overflow into the dinning room.  i hope there aren't too many bouquets of red roses.  i hope the significant others of alpha gams are more creative than that.  i wonder if there will be a bouquet that is completely random... like a bouquet of daisies.  i hope there aren't carnations.

soy amada and i hope everyone else feels loved tomorrow too.